Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Need a change

Is it bad that I don't have a long term goal other than to be happy living my daily life? I don't have a career objective, I have no plans to get married, I'm not looking to move out of state to try living some place else. I do have a Bucket List but many items on their are not big and life changing. Their little like drive route 66, go to Italy, visit the Louvre, write a book. I did have a plan that I would be married and pregnant by the time I was 25. Well, that clearly didn't happen. I thought I would get hired right out of the Luther College Bubble by a small yet prestigious theatre company as their resident lighting designer. Turns out all the companies already have that coveted position filled and those people aren't going anywhere.

So because of those failed (perhaps failed isn't the right word, I don't feel like a failure) plans I don't tend to make long term goals any more. Does that mean that I'm a slacker of life? I'm not sure. I've held 3 jobs that I've climbed up within the company and have been very proud of that. I'm looking for something new but the bummer of it is is that I have no idea what that new thing should be. I would love to do theatre work again, but sadly I have no health insurance or paid time off or a retirement plan with those gigs. I'd like to go back to school but I don't have the money. And I know many people who have degrees and are not doing anything in that field. Maybe I'm a pessimist right now, but school seems like a waste of time and money at the moment. I already have the BA, I should be able to find something new to do.

Chuck asked me what my dream was, and I said my dream involves not working. We laughed. Can't someone just pay me to connect with people on a daily basis, talk about our similarities and differences, maybe write about it and just be generally awesome? Unfortunately no, the world does not work that way. But imagine if it did... seems pretty cool, huh?

So I'm looking on-line for something new to do. I like my job I'm just ready for a new challenge. I moved to a new store with Pier 1 because I felt I had gotten everything out of the location I was at. Same thing is happening now. I don't feel there is anything else I can gain from this position and unfortunately there is no option for me to move up within that company. Can't move up, time to move on. I'm looking for something that is somewhat creative, involves working with others, enjoys a sense of humor, makes a difference in peoples lives either one at a time or in big groups, mostly allows me to leave my job at my job, gives me benefits. (And don't get me started on the fact that I have to limit my job options to the fact on whether or not I'll have health insurance and other benefits.)

Keep your fingers crossed for me to 1. find something new and 2. to keep my head up when I get discouraged.

1 comment:

  1. wanting a new challenge is, in and of itself, a goal. Finding out what that challenge is takes some dedicated work. there are books out there that deal with that-some of the best are by Dick Leider. Finding a passion for something is important. I have always believed that we do two things in life-our "job" that makes us money to pay the bills and our "work" that makes a contribution to the global good. Finding work that feels right is about who we are and who we strive to be. I am proud of you because you are daring yourself to be challenged. That takes guts and ambition. Being challenged encourages us to continue to grow and become who we are meant to be. Your potential is limited only when you stop thinking about it. Keep up the search, Sarah, because I know something wonderful awaits you. You have so much to offer and so many gifts to use. much love