So I didn't get the job. Within a half an hour of asking questions, answering questions, I feel like my hope was built up and knocked down in one full swoop. Oh well. Disappointment comes in and goes out nearly as quickly. Moving on.
Sort of. I feel like I'm now at an impasse. I like my job, I'm good at my job, I have benefits and I get to leave my work at my work. But do I want to do this forever? And forever is a long time. Do I go back to school? Do I find another job in an economy that isn't hiring? Seeing as how I wasn't given the opportunity that I surely thought would be gladly handed over, I now have all these doors in front of me.
And I don't even know which one to open first. This was not how I wanted to start off my stay-cation. I don't know where to begin. The options have always been there, I just don't like the unknown. I don't like the what ifs and the buts and the not knowing the definite outcome.
But that is life. (So deep of me. Sheesh.) But it's true. One never knows what will happen until one just does. I have a lot of thinking to do. And at the same time, more to improve on in my current job than I thought.
Change is good. Improving is good. Both together is better.